Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Who is madder??!!

Something just happened which prompted me to write. I was having tea, listening songs on my newly acquired Ipod Nano, when suddenly some old, besepctacled guy came and stood near me and started saying something. I looked at him but was in no mood to remove the earplugs, so i lazily kept of sipping my tea. He took some coins from his pocket and went to get some coffee, and then he started saying something again to me and came and sat near me.
I observed him intently and here is a description of him, as vivid as i can make with my limited observation and literary instincts: wearing slippers, heels of his feet torn and really bleeding, old torn jeans, he was wearing a dirty shirt in this winter, but there was some sign of intellect. He was carrying a newspaper ( but alas it was TOI, sorry i take my words back about the intellect part) and certain books.
He kept of saying something, but his tone was hysterical and manner very weird. I started realizing that i am in some august company.. i saw some guys at a distance looking at both of us in amusement..
"One guy who is speaking something senselessly whereas other one is listening to songs, oblivious to his rantings". But something inside me said to get my earplugs out and listen for a minute what the other person is saying...My inner voice always tells me to remember Kabir's doha - "

"Najaane kis roop main narayan mil jaayen"
So i just thought that i am getting lucky again..hahaha but wehn i listened to him, i realized he was one of the worst breed of people i have seen in this world - the IITian.. though he was reject, atleast some solace and that made that old, madman likeable to me..
He was talking about something.."he was doing his M.Tech from IITD, ..but i couldnot get the degree" or may i couldnot understand. Then he started on a topic ..he started talking about his M. tech thesis topic - it was "application of least squares method in heat conduction"...Oh Shit he was chemical engineer!!
he reiterated that it was heat conduction and not convection - as if i didnt understand the difference between the two.. i am fucking Chemical engineer from IIT D, doing his PhD from the same place (well thats the instance of my madness, albeit very small in impact)
Then he talked baout the course he has don.. dude no sweat he listed five courses, which i am sure many esteemed chemical engineers from IIT D cannot tell, - ranging from heat conduction, convection, heat exchanger design, plant design and applied maths..
But he was very old and i thought if he has done a Mt. tech from this place, then he should be doing good.. but yaar then what happened and why he suddenly went mad and ended up like this..

Then came the blow - he said " Saalon ne Degree nahin di".. this was enought to make me put my earplugs in my ears and move on.. Thinking who is madder - this guy with whom iw as sitting, or the institute which in its strive to make itself an undergraduate factory has lost its way somewhere... or the students who now a days dont care about science and technology and dont understand that they have an oppurtunity which millions in india can only dream of a nd other hundreds of million can even dream of..

or is it me.. who is thinking so much... why the hell.. some goddamn person wanted to study , couldnot get the degree, became a madman..maybe due to some other reasons.. I should be thinking about my own life.. but whenever i will hear something like this - saalon ne degree nahin di.. i will again get mad and think.. isnt there something inherently wrong with our education system...

or may i should ask.. who is madder?!!! -- kindly somebody tell
or is it

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

To get rid of cliche

Today i met rajesh jain and abhisehk dwivedi. It has been long that i have met both of them together. They are trying to pursue their destinies, abhishek is more focussed, our don is not but he knows what not to do. So in that sense i have high regard for these individuals. And whenever we losers meet, we discuss like critics, the shortcomings of others. Rajesh being the smarter of the lot, lets us blabber and just keeps laughing. I always know there is more to his intellect than i can fathom, he is one of the most worldly wise person i have met.
But , dwivedi and me , cynical towards the ways of the world, have adopted a way of finding faults with the career choices of todays' youngsters. Kindly read abhishek's blog for a greater analysis, http://abhishekdwivedi.blogspot.com.
I just want to be terse here as i am being engulfed by the sleep goddess, cliche is what i see everywhere, in youngsters wearing Nirvana's t-shirt just to fake being one with Kurt Cobain, growing there hairs long, wearing clip-ons etc. ( this all i did too). But when it comes to making choices in life, no body wants to be different. Everybody wants to hop onto the same bandwagon of consulting/MBA/finance jobs which is being fuelled by the aspirations of middle class. The problem with middle class is that it is extremely ambitious, but it extremely cautious. It wants to become super rich but are afraid to fail, to end up in dumps.
To give an analogy, we middle class are at a plateau or a hillock, we see some magnificent mountain (riches) in front of us but we also have deep valley before that mountain (poverty and struggle). Everyone desires to reach the mountain but afraid to tread the valley. So vainly we try to build a bridge from the hillock to the mountain without going through the valley. End result, many of us fail, we end up jus raising the height of the hillock a bit, but still a far cry from the colossus the mountain is.
Where in lies the solution, cries the middle class. To our dismay, it is in the valley where in lies the path to the mountain top. Literally and in an astute business sense also. In india, we have 70% population in villages, 30% peope are living in abject poverty. The next big economic revolution will come in the villages ( in the valley, the new mountain will rise). The irony is, the middle class is to busy trying to become rich the conventional way, the cliched way, and the superrich want to creat one more mountain by tapping the poor. Here is classic dichotomy of our times, which as an entrepreneur, i understand and appreciate and want to exploit. When everyone is running towards a software/IT startup, we are trying to build a barber shop/ a kirana store or maybe to be precise a highly boring eco-friendly inks business.
But again i am back at blowing my own trumpet, i am not successful, nor even a working business, but still being so arrogant to write this in a public forum.
SUCH CONVENTIONAL WAY TO GET RID OF THE CONVENTIONAL!!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

The need for women!!

It has been atleast six months that i have been officially single, unofficially fo how long even i dont know. Things happen for good or bad, it is just the perspective. Then life moves on. It was not something that was particularly desirable fo me, but in the hindsight it appears that may be for the other person it was a good decision. My decision was really immaterial for the relationship, it was more so for my own personal and professional growth.

Now time has passed and singledom is apparently boring, especially on saturdays. I know my limitations, that even if i had a girl, i maynot have given her time. All the experienced lovers in the group do agree that a relationship needs time. And time is luxury i just donot posses. With this decision to follow your heart, you get committed to your dream and that takes whole of your time. Remaining is to be prioritized, to be with parents, to be with friends, some occasional social dos and obligations. Where do i fit in a woman. But all said and done female company is what i crave for.. honestly i am desperate right now..
But sexual liberation is only a part, it would be highly unscrupulous on my part to admit otherwise. Nonetheless sexual liberation is still a part, maybe as sareen puts it 'i need to have an even greater emotional liberation', sounds cliched..but yeah it is very much true.

I am not exactly clear as to which emotions need a vent, may be the grief for messing up my previous affair, may be the desire to be heard raw about the my burinng ambition, may be self-contempt of not doing much for my parents, may be the angst against the system for not really doing much for us, what so ever... but it would be really ideal if an evening is spent, may be a few moments with an amazing woman with whom i can share all the feelings, and spare you guys the agony, ahahahh.

This thought does stir things up and so i place bets with people, so that i get close to one goodlooking woman. But alas, she apparently is not what i am looking for. Rest girls in IIT D range from being bimbettes wannabe style icons to sympathy arousing simpletons. One or two sexpots stand out but then thats what they are, sexpots. And something holds me back. I still wonder where that boldness in me vanishes, with which i am pushing my dreams of starting a business.
Seriously so much of a contrast is here... at one extreme i am pushing myself to the limits, physically and mentally to realize my dream while on the other extreme i am enveloping myself in a cocoon. The search should be on, but then again i havent found my answers from the past. This singledom has given me freedom but with its freedom have come its own laws.
May be i need to come to terms with the fact that this inner struggle will end with the realization of my dream. I have issues living alone, may be my makeup is not so. And all this crap talk about becoming a tycoon is all a design to be sought after rather than being the seeker of female companionship. May be hogging the limelight is somewhere in my persona, so it happens that in the vicinity of a woman i act awkwardly as if i am the one she should crave for than otherwise.. and that is precisely my undoing. Why i just cannot be a seeker.. may be my ego, no this is not ego, thats arrogance which holds me back...

So again this boils to down to the classic dichotomy of my nature.. arrogance versus ego and i know this struggle will go on... it has spoilt my past.. it is ruining my present.. should not my future!!!.
So there i am.. officially i am single for six months, unofficially i donot have an answer..somebody should tell!!

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Mastkhori - to the hilt - II

Came saturday morning..had to getup at 6 Am to wake up sareen.. Our hero has to go and pick up his lady love from her pace and then drop her to her work place..well quite a love affair..

10 AM - don and me finally get our sleepy bones out of the bed and have a good breakfast..We called up sareen so that he can come and give don some company at my place till the time i go out and get some of my lab work done...well kudos to me..still managing to get stuff done..

well leaving the two of them alone for 4 -5 hours.. i returned at 3 o clock... again sareen has to go and meet Ritu (hone wali bhabhi) and left me with my sweetheart..rajesh jain... ahahah
Don started his famous "time chodna exercise" - came on orkut and wasted three hours.. i slept.. read some of Warren Buffet, some of Liar's Poker.. and did some fantasizing. But by 8 c clock.. it was all over and we were waiting impatiently for sareen to come back and take us too Gurgaon..as in my words.." CHAKH KE DARU PEENE KA MAN HAI AAJ".. we have called Khera..to get ready for the evening as we will be crashing at his pad.

8:30 sareen returned.. me and don were doing some Yoga..ahhahaha..sahi chutiyapa chal raha tha.. but then sareen said he is unable to drive as he is exhausted.. handed over the keys of his car to me. I was a bit skeptical,was not sure whether i wanted to do this, sareen has bestowed his faith in my driving abilities (i am also proud of myself here, want to become a truck driver if nothing works out..but thats along story..some other time) by allowing me to drive his newly acquired second hand Suzuki BALENO.. and i dint want to shake his faith..

With in a couple of kms..i got the hold of the car and then after that it was smooth sailing. We hit the theka in front of IIT D.., sahi chutiyapa hai.. pehle to saala theka khol dete ho aur phir kehta ho ki launde daru pee rahe hain,..packed lots of beer, whisky adha..and adha of vodka..whew..for four people only...

Sahi hai..

Monday, August 07, 2006

Aravalis






Mastkhori - to the hilt - I

It all started on friday afternoon... had to drop my mom to the station..dad already boarded a flight in the morning so actually i was all alone after 4 pm on friday.. and i was looking forward to meeting the gang..
Yeah i was slacker that day.. didnt give the presentation i wanted to.. wonder where that limelight hogging bhimania has gona and remains a lazy, bakchod bhim..
By 7 it was clear i wouldnot be able to work late into the night.. the entrepreneurial spirit which has been associated with me had long gone and i wanted to get out of my lab.. so hit the gym... by 8:30.. Don and saree were on their way from gurgoan.. i reached home.. played a new CD..sing and dance routine all alone.. realized i am still good at it..atleast the dancing part..and well did improvise some new moves.. saree called and asked to rush to priya to get tickets for Omkara.. Betichod saala.. this is OMKARA fever which is bound to grip everyone who sees the movie..

9:45 - sareen and don joined me.. pat came the congrats from Don.. about my new conquest of asking out a girl in my institute... well yeah..it was not about the girl it was about regaining lost confidence..
had a quick dinner at Nirula's and i explained to saree my modus operandi..
10:35..OMKARA- chutiye aur bewakoof mein dhaage bhar ka pharak howe.. dhaage ke inghe bewakoof to unghe chutiya.. dhaaga hata do to kaun bewakoof aur kaun chutiya.ek karode ka prashaan hai bhaiya!.. Siaf ali khan has attained cinematic immortality with this classic role of langda tyagi..
And i could gauge the impact on Don by the fact that during intermission he came out of the hall and shouted - "BETICHOD! MOOTNA KAHAN HAI"..and the suave, urbane crowd of priya could hardly hide their shocks.. but yeha all phoney bastards..like me..
2:30 reached my den.. all three.. and started the favorite pastime of ours.. Backchodi... went on till 4;00 and then slept..


To be continued....as two days are left

Friday, July 28, 2006

I feel.. I feel like myself!!

Well driving a Bajaj Avenger on an empty road, wind blowing in your face.. you all alone, actually gives you a lot of time and peace to think about life. I am no different, it is just that when i am on my 'bird'..as i call it..i just contemplate. The beauty of this bike is that it just takes away all the tensions away from you... leaves you with the comfort that you can actually feel like thinking about the nicer things in life..
The brilliant ad by Bajaj people says... i forgive all.. i feel.. i feel like god. One of my friends said that "come on! you didnt buy the bike after the ad and the tag line..did you?!".. well i was seriously hurt as i did buy the bike after seeing the ad... ok understood that we lesser mortals can never equal the almighty.. but having a feeling is good enough..
But i saw the whole tagline in completeness...it says - " I FORGIVE ALL..I FEEL LIKE GOD"..
but people just hear the last words....feel like god.. throughout the ad, the biker keeps on forgiving the people who havenot been good to him...thats was the reason i bought the bike..
i wanted a bike which can take me to a mental level where i would be able to forgive people of their follies ... and above all forgive myself for some of them...
And frankly speaking.. i have reduced uttering the obscenities while i drive when somebody cuts me off..or crosses a redlight.. well i do feel like forgiving people...
On a practical note.. what more can we do..than just to restrain ourselves from getting angry.. People always get angry when somebody drives rash.. and loose their temper.. casuing serious stress to themselves.. but when they are at the position where they can actually not jump a redlight... they just cannot restrain themselves..
And after that.. they give a million excuses to themselves or to fellow passengers .." yaar yeh india hai,.. yaar koi aa nahin raha ... just look and go"...
My rationale i simple.. i dont get angry at people.. i just dont forgive myself for not following the traffic rules.. That way i dont have to give explanations to anyone...atleast not to myself..

Thats why i bought my bird-- i actually makes me forgive people.. that is actually one of the toughest emotions in the world..to actually forgive people.. may be thats why Bajaj's brilliant admakers compared the rider's mental state to GOD.. if you can actually forgive people.. you are one step closer to him..and surely it makes me feel like myself..
And yeah when i was departing from that friend of mine on my BajaJ Avenger.. i simply forgave her too... cause yeah..

I FORGIVE ALL.. I DO FEEL LIKE GOD...

Monday, July 24, 2006

Its high time that I get out of my typical lazy IT attitude and be a lil active....So this is an honest try to do so . I dont know how long i would be able to sustain this ..... Met Bhim a few days back in the insti...... I was at SDA hunting for a meal .... Had some very nice sensible talk with him. Its good to hear that everyone is doing something worthwhile ...... Heard that Kalia has started preparing for CAT and I believe he can crack it provided he is not distracted too much by the babes he hangs around with these days( INFO : Courtesy Mr. Jain )...It has been a while that I met all you guys but trust me...I hav tried many times but its either too much work or too much laziness......
Have heard the American Bros are having loads of fun these days....GG and Bhatia have bought cars and all....I was blessed by the Gods when I got a call from Nekhil Mishra....Ya ppl in India should be happy to know that the alleged news of him being teleported to some parallel world was a total hoax and he is very well out here and kicking....
Havent heard much about Sareen or Cheti though....I know Cheti tries his best to get heard but u know.....He He He....Just kidding Cheti....
Well little about me .... Few weeks back I bought a car for myself....A FIAT Palio ... named her also ...... Aphrothena ...... Aphrodite + Athena ( For not so lit low lives ;-) these are Greek Goddesses ).....I think too much for a blog....O&O

Sunday, July 23, 2006

A miserable initiative on my part it seems....the start of the Game 24/7 appears be a flop show.Only 5 out of 15 invitations have been accepted so far.Just an observation.
I can understand that winggies are really busy with their own lives that they cant waste their precious few seconds to become a member of the blog
I hope that things will improve number of members.But I would rather be interested in seeing more posts


Atthi is going to start his professional life two days from today...Best of luck Atthi ...And do pitch in with new experience of job life.
Rishabh bhaiya has finally joined two test series and is gearing up for the CAT -2007 ... and when i am writing this he is out taking a CL Test...Best of luck to you too
Khera and I ...magai for GMAT ...what else...
Parakh and Bhatia ...Busy dating some new gals...bhagwaaan jab deta hai to ...samay pehelwaan to ....matko ke din ab badal gaye ...(mera no kab aayega)
Bhim ..as usual senti on a gal and thinking new ways to woo the maths dept chick ...guys please help him with new and hottest topic of research in chemical engineering and suggest something innovative that she comes to our bhim(hero) leaving her bf (villain)...lol...

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Meeting with sareen - over beer

Hi guys!!

it was long time i met sareen, who just came back from his stint in London.... his project went well and the next phase he will beworking on from india..( i am writing this as he declared he has the inertia to write stuff )
Well after a couple of beers at the 'masala junction', we started venturing into the details of our wingmates lives'. Ofcourse, i was the person who was telling him about the goings on in other peoples' lives.

We discussed about the characteritics of our wingmates - well what a drab topic on a saturday evening...but nonetheless the beer mellowed us down and we had a good talk about the guys we spent four years in the hostel..
he was actually ( as always) very much positive about bhatia..quoting him - " yaar bhatia dil ka max saaf aadmi hai, jo dil main aata hai wo bol deta hai.. kaafi naraaz tha wo mishra se"
well i couldnot agree more with him.. and i said most of the guys are pretty straight forward in our wing...
We talked about tau, khera , don, rishabh, and to my utter surprise DJ.. how come on earth saree found DJ dil ka saaf ..hahahaa ( yaar DJ dil pe mat lena)...
But the came the statement from saree which was actually bang on.. " yaar jab bhi DJ ko bulao wo aa jaata hai.. kabhi na nahin karta".. point taken.. DJ is ofcourse 'dil ka saaf"

then.. things went towards better things in life.. why we dont have a get together where we all meet along with our better halves.. i guess that was my idea because as the guys get maaried.. rather than maintainin distances.,it will be cool if we actually maintain the same kind of friendship.. for that its important for us to become comfortable with each other's life partners..
well that was it.. two guys..mildly high over kingfisher strong beer..and discussing things which actually matter..
not what is irrelevant.. but whats the essence of life.. how to actually enjoy life... how not to worry about our careers for a while.. and just live lives..the way we used to..
as i walked out.. with the occassional sutta in my hand...i wondered what better way this meeting could have been.. and i thought about the group called "GAME 24/7"..

and in the air was a song.. oh paaji order pe daaru peene chal.. and i was a bit high!!

Monday, July 17, 2006

Investment - random musings

Hi yaaron!!

I was thinking of writing something on this topic. Since it concerns one and all, people nowadays are making investments in the stock market, in real estate, and in commodities . So i thought it will be really helpful for all of us, with varied degree of knowledge in this field, to come out and discuss the nitty-gritties of this 'last liberal art' - Invseting.

To begin with - investing, according to me, is placing money on some article, piece of land, piece of business, or some commodity with the intention of making some reasonable ( definition varies - for some 10% is reasonable and some people make claims of 100% returns or more) returns. The most common examples are real estate and equities. Since i am more exposed to equities, i will be talking, henceforth, from the perspective of stock investment.

For a prudent investor, it makes sense to buy a stock which is available in the market at a price substantially lower than its value ( again the definition varies but as a standard 30-50% can be regared as a safe range of discounted value). The tough part is to find the stock/s which is/are trading at the price signifiantly lower than its value. Again how to evaluate is another important question in itself.

So for today i will leave the floor open for discussion on which stocks to buy, how to find the value and how do people define investing in the stock market..

Bhimania
Cheti yaar..mast slangs hain.. so from now onwards..stop throwing a teddy when we are maaro gaand...aahhaha

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Spoofy and Dodgy Part-I

My company has filtered out the orkut links. Fuck!! Man, it will be hard to stay in touch from now on. Anyways, I will crib about it on my own times, why bore you chaps.
Good job my dear fellas. Chhotu dost, your blog is awesome, a fine piece to pass time with. So whats up these days? Whats keeping you busy!!

As we are talkin about anything under the sun here are some of the new slangs I find quite intersting frequently used in the UK:
- 'throwing a teddy': the way babies throw their toys in revolt to show their dislike towards other's actions. This slang is quite a frequent in day-to-day conversation about a person complaining of silly stuff. example me dashing out the hostel room in frustration or whatever, whenever you guys started the Gaand Marna routine of you lot.
- 'Rajie': used as 'Rajie bastard' (reminds of Raj aka Rajesh Jain is he likes to be called) is actually further more degarding than a plane bastard more or so like a pervert.
- Cunt: Not a female cunt you Rajie bastard!! I never knew 'Cunt' was so degrading. It not only means that you give a shit (i like British pronunciation 'Shiiite' as-in 'like') about society but it means that a cunt is a total outclass and person who doesn't care about anyone and HENCE no one else gives a shit about.
- Spawnie Git: Lucky person
- Foxchourouska (I doubt the spellings): this is sorta cryptic notion for Fuck-off or fucked up. Its used publicly and deamed less offensive. For word diggers, I came to know that its roots are to do with phonetic letters describing FO -- Fuck-off!!

there are many more that I spotted but will write if anyone interested.

Happy posting ...

Saturday, July 15, 2006

BEGINNINGS

BEGINNINGS
Friends!! After passionately and vehemently coaxing Rajesh jain into starting a group blog, finally i am doing my part. His part was to actually create this platform. Mine, or rather ours is to make it vibrant, full of actvity. The genesis of the idea was in the continued dormancy of our e-group. Fine, orkut is the in thing, u write the quick scrap.. intimate about ur well being, but that was it.. nothing much..not a platform for the friends to discuss, communicate ( rather miscommuniate) our ideas, feelings, viewpoints.. like the way we used to do... endless hours of the nights.. one room cramped with guys..cramped not because of the physical space but becuase of the ideas... whuuhaa..it makes me nostalgic!!!
I may say.. for many people in our group it appears that the friendship we shared during college days was of convenience.. just we were brought together by circumstances, we developed a relationship..which survived through thick and thin...
But now as we all have embarked on our various journeys, it may not be possible to meet frequently. We get busy in professional lives.. may not have the time to respond immediately, and becuse of that the relationship is getting weaker...no way ... i think we are a group of buddies not separated by geographical distances.. KEHTE HAIN DURIYAN DILLON MEIN HOTI HAIN DESHON MEIN NAHIN..
thats why this blog is..
when u r alone and have time on ur hands.. drop in something, anything.. what happened in ur meeting, what happened with ur PhD advisor.. or maybe ( if people are not offended) what happened with ur better halves..hahahaha
well the gist is ..if in this internet age, we cry foul that we cannot carry this relationship together... then shame on us...
sincere plea to members who are especially busy.. not to take any names....
talking on phones one to one.. it may be good once in a while but..lets communicate freely and at will..
lets have a new beginning to this never ending friendship...
DIL CHAHTA HAI..
Bhimania

Friday, July 14, 2006

A new initiative ...

Dearest Winggies
The purpose of this blog is to stay in touch with all the winggies.
I hope that this will be a better and effective way for (mis)communication among us.
Signing Off
Rajesh Jain